Somebody I considered a pretty close friend did something that I don't know if I can get past. She got drunk with my ex-boyfriend and made out with him. I was so floored to hear that. I talk to her about Ryan all the time, about how much I still care and love him and well everything. I have listened to her cry on my shoulder when her friend hooked up with the guy she liked and how hurt so was. Hmmm.... She says they were just so drunk and it just happened, but I don't know if I believe that. I think they like each other. I honestly don't understand how a friend could do this to another friend. I'm just so crushed, I cried all night last night. I realize that Ryan will move on and make out with other girls and whatever, but does it need to be one of my friends who knows I love him? I just think that is so shitty and hurtful. Now, I don't trust her, and everytime I see them talking it just makes me upset all over again. I feel like she doesn't respect our friendship. I don't hate her, but right now I am so angry I can't even see straight. It will definatly take awhile for me to get over this, but if it happens again, I really don't think I want to be friends with this girl. Unfortunatly now I also have hateful feelings towards Ryan again. How could he be such an asshole? We're both supervisors who have to work together for at least another month, how could he do something like this and not expect there to be problems. AND what still confuses me is that he won't give me my pictures and stuff back from when we were dating. Well he obviously doesnt have any sort of feelings about me whatsoever so why the fuck not? God, I am just so mad right now. I can't wait until I don't have to deal with this shit anymore. Maybe having a shitty summer was what I needed to actually want to go back to school.